Happiest moment of my life :)

Today brought in a whole tumblefull of happiness and surprises for me that almost.. NO SCRATCH THAT.. made up completely for all the depsiar, sadness, loneliness and hurtfull emotions that i went through all these past few months. I mean it was like a belated Christmas present!!

But this time I won't be giving out details of what went through the day as i want to relish it fully myself without sharing it with the rest of the world. Only exception is....well he knows who he is. Anywayz,i alwayz rely on something tangible to preserve or cherish a memory forever. Maybe that is why some people call me "MATERIALISTIC" but my main reason behind this is to imprint a certain memory by linking it to something physical that wiil alwayz remind me of that thing!



But today i don't need anything to make me remember the beautiful happenings of the day as it is imprinted in my heart forever and the best thing is the memory itself is the link that will keep the memory refreshed in my mind forever. Isn't it a great thing? I think it is.

All i can say is i dipped my feet into the alternatively new horizons of feelings and sentiments which overwhelmed me to the core and melted whatever doubts i had within me reagrding trust and companionship plus lifelong friendship. I hope i never have to come out of this pool of alluring feelings. I am ready to take the plunge into it head first! Lolz :D



Thank you for making the day really special one for me. :)

Merry Christmas Celebration-Twin Treat Or Was It Double Trouble?

Yesterday was the day which i have been waiting for a long time..For many reasons..One it was the day Ghajini was releasing!! Pretty big thing for me as i have been dying to watch that movie. Second, it was also marking the start of my holidays, few pleasurable days away from the regular mayhem of the office. And third, i was meeting Abbu after a very very long time.

Though i must tell you the last part happened pretty coincidentally. It wasn't even planned, just happened. And then there was NITS, with whom i was meeting for the second time, was pretty much relaxed after the intial awkwardness of the first meeting. Although we weren't awkward to say the least..tee hee..



Anywayz, the day proceeded just fine, just as i planned. Me and Abbu met one hour before the movie to celebrate our reunion. It was a good half an hour. We were sitting in the Mcds, eating burger and fires and gazing at each other. :) A quick trip to my "OFFICE" later it was time for us to separate for the time being as we were going with different partners for the movie.

Then it was time for Ghajini. Let me give you one piece of advice, if you really want to enjoy this ambitious project of Aamir Khan then go without an image of an utterly itense and gory movie. I mean of course the movie is intense.. But it is also COMMERCIAL! I don't want you too to end up feeling confused and baffled as to where is that crazy fanatic avengin story!!



But the movie ROCKED literally! Aamir is such a brilliant actor that you feel like applauding him just for the sheer effort that he puts into making each role just perfect to suit his personality and give his audience a real treat! A must watch i must say. One time at least!

But the real drama unfolded after the movie when me and NITS said goodbye to Abbu and his friend and headed out for lunch at Pind Baluchi. I never believed in these words but sometimes "SILENCE does speak louder than words". And that is what exactly happened. But maybe we both interpreted that silence in different sense or at least i did. That is the reason he left too early and ended whatever good time we were having or might have had.

Although everything got cleared out later on the phone.. It still stirred me up a lot to make me think and ponder over certain facts. But that is the matter which is not bothering me now, so i won't discuss it either. Right now i am enjyoing my extended weekend through whetver i can and looking forward to tommorow's outing.

Oops! now i am late for an article which i promised i will deliever before Sunday..have to pull up the strings now. So gotta go..

P.S. As to the question in the title if it was Twin Treat or Double Trouble..that is the question which is left unanswered lolz :D

Breaking Down: In Search Of My Quantum Of Solace

I am not going to entertain you guys with a review about the last bond movie.In fact, i am not even writing this one for anybody. Well the purpose of my whole blog was in fact was to take those very things out of my system which are churning inside and giving me pain in certain parts of my body, for instance my heart[ cannot mention about the brain as it is absent in my case] Lolz.:D

Everyone is in need of their "SPACE" , privacy which one guards with utmost authority. Even the most extroverts seek this isolation of sorts, a guarding door to their private territory behind which they don't want to allow anyone. Well, for me finding such space and time for myself is a tad difficult. Anyone living with a joint family can empathize with me over this fact. So, the only time i get to sort out and actually confront what i am really feeling inside is the time when i am coming back from office to home. That half an hour becomes my shrine, where only my methodology and ability to conjure things and reminiscing works.

Clearly, according to some people this is not a good way at all to deal with your trouble."You should try to avoid those things", says one of my friends. But isn't it like repressing your emotions? Instead i am giving them a way out of my system! At least for the time being, until they find another way to creep back in!

I cherish my quantum of solace at that time more than anything. Coz this is the only time when i am being my true self, far away from the bubbly-dumb-cute-looking-fat ass-good for nothing person which i am for the rest of my kin[ parts baout physical description are really true although!]:D. Sometimes my real self do comes out in front of others and dat's the time i get into all kinds of arguments, fights and awkward situations. But slowly i am mastering the art of slipping back into the mask and hiding behind this safe facade where no one can question me. But i shudn't bother that much about it coz hardly anyone cares about it..now!



It's just "Main aur meri tanhai...jo aksar baatein karte hain....". In other words my dear "QUANTUM OF SOLACE"

Thode Badmaash....

Miss You My Batmeez when

someone makes a :P emoticon on Yahoo :)

someone laughs and cries at the same time while drunk

someone coos sweet nothings with intensity and compassion

someone lulls me to sleep by singing 'ur my hunny bunns sugar plums..'

TZP, Darsheel and Maa comes on screen

Saawariya is playing [ background theme, the climax separation scene]

Thode Badmaash can be heard in the background

someone asks for a promise which ends anything even before the beginning

someone utters the names.. Arjun and Tamanna....sigh!

someone makes me feel i look 'beautiful'

someone says 1..2....3 ******

someone says dat special name



I haven't found anyone yet with all of the above misgivIngs....I don't really miss u that means. Coz there is no one like you. But that is also trUe that i haven't ever forgtten you...atleast the person you were with me during that time..Coz i hate the otherwise emotionless, indifferent solid wall of rock of today....

P.S. High time i should cut the crap and get my bearings right..as someone once told me..'It is the nighttime which makes you think about all those things which seems unimportant to you in the day. It is the time for over the top sentiments and emotions.' Trying to quit with.. unsuccessfull attempts ofcourse.:)

That Time Of The Year Again....

A year has gone by and yet everything is stil fresh in my memory..A little jaded maybe, but not forgotten as the beautiful memories are embedded in a small corner of my mind that is directly connected to my heart. Maybe this is the reason that i haven't been able to forget somethings even after this long!

It is this beautification of feelings that i like. It is not that you always have to feel a thing or two about a particular person depending uponthe situation. Yes, it is true, this is how emotions are controlled. But sometimes a certain feeling, memory or emotion gets attached with a particular incident and you can still feel it even if the time has carefully ladden a thick amount of dust on that memmory book and the person is no longer a part of your life. It is still their that Sweet, Bitter or even Sour emotion. Lolz.

The fact remains that you want to cherish it or let it pass by. I decided to cherish it forcibly sometime back..But it only hurted me a lot. Then i decided to let it go.. and surprsiignly that hurted me too though a little. And then i left the things on time.... And as i am going through that time period again..Those mischievious remembrandts of the past crrep back into some playful corner of the mind and i can't stop myself from smiling, laughing..and crying. :)

And that's when i realized that these feelings are mine. These emotions are my treasure. Noone can take them away from me except for me.. This comforting thought of cherishing something forever was the thing that eventually drove me to let it go by itself! Confusing haan! Just like my mind..



P.S.check d post above it fr a little obuitary

SO BORED AND CONFUSED THAT DON;T EVEN HAVE A SOLID TOPIC TO WRITE ON!!

I am so bored, main kya karun? Kya likhun? No exciting work in office, nothing stimulating enough to create a blog! Nil, Nada, Nothing, Zilch!! Urrrghhhh so i am musing my time by pondering over this boredom only. Why did the life took this turn? Why did i have to endure such a boring phase in my life? Is it a part of life? I mean the sub caaegory of main directory i.e. ups and downs? Well who knws and id anyone knows about this then WHO CARES!! The thing is i don't want to delve into this vicious questions that come back again and again in one or the other form.... time to relax! Not to dive into the murky pool of thoughts ..for the time being at least.



Well, as Sanjay Nirupam said in Big Boss Season 2, "Jab dukh ka samay chal raha ho to nischint ho jao, kuynki iske baad ab Sukh aane hi waala hai, isse bura nahi ho skta..to ab achcha hi hoga...." Well surprisingly, it was a very comforting thought despite the atrocios nature of the curent season.At least something came out good ..for me if i may say so, don't know about the participants lolz.

TRING TRINGGGG....

Do you think that what ringtones we keep on our friends and even foes represent our feelings for them? is it any kind of indication of our relationship with them? Well, i tried to figure it out with my span of ringtones set up for my contact list. Though personally i put up whatever popular song i like on the basis of person's calling ratio to me. Lolz :D. And yeah sometimes it does reflect a lot on what i feel for them too! So here it is.....

Home Sweet Home: Jhoom Barabar Jhoom....No sense i know! /)

Chinku: Chingi Pingi Pingi Paun Paun..Mera Phone Baj Raha Mera Phone....hehehehe

Lippo: Jungle Jungle Baat Chali Hai/Crazy Kiya Re/Ayee Pappi [ only two words for her Diaper Baby hehehee]

Abhishek: Dhoom Macha le, cumonn u people..lolz [rock star!! Hero hai mera Friend]

Shilpo:Salaam/Wo Ajnabi....hehehehehee [ gt married naa, ishiliye]

Anika: O Paape Pyaar Karke Pachtaya...hahahahaha[ she broke off at that time]

Kanwalii : tumhi dekho na/Ye Mera DIl Paar Ka Deewna[ dhin chak Kanwal, she is the love of my life lolz....]

Surbhi: Oops! tere pe to lagana hi bhool gayi. hehe

Richu: Kajrare Kajare..Tere Kaare Kaare Naina...[ guys were crazy abt her Kohl filled eyes]

Vinnie: Pehla Nasha.. Pehla Khumaar....lolz bhnagi pe lagai maine ye tune..eeks!

Kipsi: YOur My Honey Bunch SUgar PLum yummy yummy Pumpkins....ur my SHWEETIE pie :)

Rohit: Vibration mode.....[all those chit chats thrugh out the night till wee hours in the morning]

Abuu: Ke Aaya Mausam Dosti Ka....[i love the MPK whistle]



Rishi: Sawaariyan [lolz jo ki tu kabhi nahi ban skta mera..hehe]

Nitesh : Didn't even bothered to set it, coz u NEVER CALL ME.... my NEEDY friend lolz.

Current common tune: Bachna Ae Haseeno, other phone: Mar Jawaan

Actually the current status of my phne is a big fat SILENT!! [Coz my touch screen got screwd....:(:( ] Guess what do i sing for my Silent mode, Tera Mujhse Hai Gehra Sa Naata Koi...lolz



Next addition: caller tunes! what do they tell about the user's mentality. Don't forget to read it....lolz....

LIFE IS : ADVENTURE ISLAND!!

Have you ever considered or viewed life from the point of view of an amazing roller coaster ride? Or have you related it with all the fears, thrills and adreline rush you feel while on water Splash Dunk!! Well think about it from that perspective and maybe your faith in the sanctity of positivity and hope will get reinstated. If you think philosophically.

Now this Sunday i got the chance to visit the place Adventure Island, an amusement park again. I had been there only once before with friends last year around this time only.Incidentally, that was too a b'day treat. So anywayz we assembled in the grounds of the park with the same apprehension in my heart 'how the hell will i survive the rides this time?' Being literally scared of them since like ever, i couldn't imagine myself braving all those dangerous rides again. Only the cutsie ones and car rides for me.

NOTE

due to some change of heart and certain circumstances i would be discontinuing the the Ten Dates series. Don't know when will i pick it up again, maybe tom only...But right now i want to give that in writing THAT I DON'T WANT TO PRESERVE THOSE MEMORIES IN SUCH MOOD........urrghhh

TEN DATES OF MY LIFE cntnd..-McDonalds me hai kuch baat....

Been planning to write the second post of this 10 part series for quite sometime now, but since i joined office again.. didn't had much time or the inclination [and by inclination i do not mean the absence of will or dislike to write, just the fukkin tiredness which is not letting me to write anything else. So after much dilly dallying i thought to at least start the second chapter...... will keep updating it.. as NO OPTION AGAIN TO SAVE IT! :)

9 july 2008-Kuch Kuch Hota Hai
I knw i knw i said in the above note not to remember these dates. But can't help it. I feel like writing right now! So here it goes. I was in a heap that day because of some tension in the office. I mean, there was this huge confusion over whodunnit![not gonna tell what the issue was, office matter!] And it was during this day that i found out about that backstabbing BITCH of my office. And me being me, fell down in the middle of the office crying over the wrong done to me.

It was in this distressful time that i felt desparate for something good, some hope, somthing to make me feel alive again [at least at the time being I felt i was DYING!]. I called HIM up crying and asked him am not able to take this anymore and his advice of staying calm hasn't been working too. 'his name' tu aa jaa..' came out of my mouth as soon as lunch got over. After a while due to the efforts of my sweet collegues and my seat mate i started feeling a little better and alomst came back to being normal. In fact, i almost forgot about my doleful requst to HIM. But around 4:45 pm my phone rang and he said,'i am donwstairs'. I was pleasanty surprised. I asked quite happily,'tu sachi me aa gaya HIS NAME'!! :) :)

The next hour was too hard for me to pass by. I was just waiting for the clock to chime 5:40 and as soon as it did i rushed downstairs to find him standing next to the white pillar nearest to the exit staircase. I ran down the stairs feeling quite elated my spirits already soaring at the sight of him. He asked me with concern 'kya hua tha?' and i feeling suddenly shy and overwhelmed at this concern replied quite meekly 'i told u na, what happened, but let's just move from here, i don't want my office people to see me like this'. So we moved on towards our nearest gateaway. McDs.



There sitting at the long back bench running all round the backwall of McDs, i poured out my rest of the problem to him. Soon after the conversation moved again to some more pleasant topics and we forgot for what purpose he had come to meet me.[ I can't remember much, the memories are fading i guess, but not those feelings,can still feel that thrill and excitement]. I brought our snack this time, saying its my treat after all invited him today! Lolz. Over 2 iced teas and 1 pizza Mcpuff [which we ofcourse shared] we continued our sharing of stuff with each other. Things from his life, events from my life. We both were quite a bunch to watch, lauging at really silly things, enjoying each other's company thorughly, not even caring what others would be thinking.

It was while sitting side by side like this when he partially hugged me and we never even realized it at what point of time we came so close to each other.Too stressed up after the day's events i leaned my head on the table for a while when he was tlking on phone wioth a friend or was it a collegue? Don't remember now.Suddenly someone was patting my head softly just the way i like which always lulls me to sleep. I looked up and saw his reassuring face and felt quite warm and happy. I finally found a F.R.I.E.N.D.



Then again the time came to part as the extra half an hour which i asked from him was also over and it was really time to head out towards home.We strolled outside of the McD's door which he jokingly held open for me as i had chided him earlier for his lack of chivalry.Lolz.While venturing out with him in the lead i saw his hand coming toweards me, but i didnt took it. Dont knw why.He didn't said anything. Soon we started walking side by side, it was raining, he brought his hand forward again and this time i took it without any hesitation. I felt as if it was a very natural thing to do. He commented,'Your wish to soak in the rain together came true'.' Although it was just a mere drizzle, but still it's the thought that counts!



We headed out towards the auto stand and found one. Too soon, i thought. It was time to say goodbye or in my words see you soon time!! :)I told him i don't want to go. and i guess he said the same[don't remember it exactly] But obviuosly i had to go and he gave me a hug partially again and this time his back pack came between us.Lolz.I left in the auto and waved bye to him with the hope of seeing him again and again and again.....

He called me after 15 mins.I checked my mobile, there were 2 missed calls and one msg from HIM. The mseegae said, "was calling to tell you that. it was written on auto..'HIS NAME' di gaddi..:)

sigh!

SCREAMMMMMMMM.......

NOTE: This is just a rough draft,an incomplete version, at an area where there is no option of saving it.Just publishing.But couldn't let an idea pass by..i mean its my way of SCREAMMing...;)

This thing i noticed or have been noticing for quite a while now, to be exact since i saw 'Metro' last year that there are no good places for anyone to screaam! Yes i am right! I mean if u have seen the movie then u must remember that scene where in Irffaan Khan leads a very inconsolable Konkana Sen to the rooftop and let out her frustrations and emotions in a one long deep SCREAMM! Just seeing the scene i could actually feel the calm that followed inside a person after venting out all those clogged up feelings.......But sadly i don't live in Mumbai's skyscrapers.I live in Delhi and if i ventured out on my rooftop for this exercise, half of the neighborhood would be up in arms as to see what's wrong? Probably they would think am committing suicide or something..lolz....

THIS JUST in.I had a really good long screaming session in the weekend itself.I guess it was expected given the frustrations building up inside me due to work pressure, family pressure and various other ups and downs where things are out of my control.It ACTUALLY WORKS. All that frustration just went POOF! vanishes away.This is a fact which everyone would agree upon.But some would agree to another fact that at the end of the day and a rare peaceful night, its another day and the struggle begins once again......until you go through one more screaming session.Happy SCREAMMING everyone, keep your lungs in good shape through this recommended exercise but don;t over do it.I would haaatte you to lose your voice just because of my advice....

REALIZATIONS....

Its been exactly 3 months, 3 days now that i went down with fever.. last time i got sick was on that day.....

Its been exactly 3 months, 2 days now that i went to Fun & Food and had a rocking day there... one of my lasts....

Its been exactly 3 months , 1 day now that i saw Jaane Tu Yaa Jaane Naa.... for the first time.......

And its been exactly 3 months now to that fateful day when i met HIM for the first time......just realized it........

TEN DATES OF MY LIFE.........

BeenThinking about this one since a long time back.. i mean at d time of dates i wasn't keen into keeping a journal.... too lazy [ and too busy was practically floating on AIR!!] and thought those details wud never fade away from mind..Bt eventually its human to forget those little little things that matters the most sure u remember them once in a while but not in a series like they took place.. happens.. So wht i thought was ki its never too late to record my impressions however botched up they maybe unless the time wipe them out significantly frm my memory.....
08-07-2008, Pizza Hut- JAB WE MET....Hovering over a pizza

I remember d day as arund 4:30 pm i stole a glance at the office wall clock and thougt still almost an hour to go before i would finally meet him.. Got a msg frm him too dat he too is counting the time till we met.. Sent me an exact calculation of minutes left......Dn't rem noww....So at around 5:30 i went to perk myself a bit..hehehe to be mre presentable at least . It turned out it took me mre than 10 minutes and by the time i came out it was already past 5:40..I quickly dashed across stairs meanwhile looking for him where he is standing[ can still feel dat excitement, dat rush, dat giddy feeling.... sigh!] He was standing on the wrng side of our supposedly decided location..As it turned out am nt good with giving OR receiving directions lolz
He called to ask where i was, i told him i am standing there only, he said me too and then we started walking towards each other not seeing each other being lost in the crowds of the evening people.....I wasn't wearing my specs ..Asked d color of his shirt[ a bad habit of mine, recognise people by the color of their clothes] It ws White and dere was a swarm of white shirts around me.. what LUCK!! I accidently followed a wrng guy bt realized soon it wasn;t HIM...

[ d conversation here is wht i think happened in absence of any other way to remember the true content..locked up in some part of my mind]

Then suddenly i reached near the poster wall of the movie hall and he said ok i spotted u. I asked where r u? I can't see u... He said look in front.Dere was a group of people in front of me which promptly moved aside and den i saw a guy, tall and lanky at frst glance clad in white shirt [dn;t rem trousers colors] with an army green backpack walking towards me with ear phones hanging from his hand attached to obviously a handset....and he was SMILING, a very genuine and nice smiles dat i have encounterd so fa , d one which makes u feel warm inside and see things in a postive light.. [never got a chance to tell HIM dis] We MET said hello shook hands.. smiled a lot at each other.. then thought where to go.. where to go.. We started moving in one direction i stopped HEY, we can't go this way, he trned in d other direction and i stopped him again.. NOT DIS WAY..by that time he was laughing at my stupidity or so i thought.. so we headed toward the PIZZA HUT..Bt i refused upon reaching its gates ki no i had been there on another date and it wud be like awkward soo let;s go somewerhe else... he agreed and we started moving towards BARISTA...Dere was water clogged up on the pavement frm d rain in the morning i had to step carefully coz was wearing heels..[btw.. i was wearing my famous fitted oval necked purple and black broad stripped top with a black halter underneath and narrow fitted denim jeans]...HE was on phone tlking to someone frm d office but out of the corner of eye i saw him watching out for me whether i accidentally make a splash in the algae filled street....it made me feel good and i smiled inwardly to myself only.. we headed towards BARISTA.. actually sat down at a table near the glass wall..[which later became OUR table on d other dates to come]

He was checking me out i cud see it while flipping through the menu.. i wasn't in the mood of coffee..i conveyed this bit of information to him.. TRING TRING call from mom i told him to be quiet... informed mom out with FRIEND techincally sach hi to hai naa lolz.. Anywayz then we came out and were thnkin whther to head towards MCD's or nt.. Dat i suddenly declared we will go to PIZZA HUT only.. so we trudged back thru the same path and landed up at the eating outlet again... took a table far away frm where i sat last time.. on my insistence of course..

Dere was a slight tussle over which pizza to order he being open to all kinds including the red dotted section.. bt it wasn't my forte.. so we struck to the veggie offers.. And den decided to try out something new in itt..Anywayz upon drinks of lemonade we soon began discussing wht we usually tlked over phne..taking the conversation further..working our way through pizaa and broken relationships never realizing that in the coming days our woes of being away from all this relationship and love murk would soon be forgotten.... Anywayz he took out digi cam, den showed me pics of his past.. which i hardly remember now .. and til dis date it is a just a vague imprint in my mind and i never went out of my way to give any particular image to that shadow.....

I asked him to move over to my side coz was having problem seeing the pics and not keeping in touch with his steady flow of description.....Eventually he asked to take a pic of ours together to seal d moment n time... He took it ] himself which turned out rather well... ACCORDING TO HIM... [ I thought ki i looked particularly ugly... like other members of my sex!] And then insisted on another one which i asked the waiter to take.. It was also a good one for mee.. Den out came my motorocker and clicked some quick pics of himm....for his orkut and facebook profile i said 'urs aren't good enough , use any of dese...' which he never did... A quick discussion follwed on whom shud pay on the frst date and all the garb.. and we both agreed to go DUTCH! i liked it..!:)

Upon a quick glance at his watch we saw it was well past 7.. 'how quickly the time flew by' a line used many a times before but never spoken with such conviction in our case.....i regretedly headed out alongwth him to the auto stand.....where upon we thnked each other for a wonderful evening.....Incidentally he held out his hand for me to shake at the same instant when i was about to sit in the auto... Dis thing i realized only after few minutes and thumped my head.. ki me being me HADD to do something stupid and DUMB.....

As my auto headed for the turn on the main road , my phone ringes it was HIM.. he called to thank for me a nice evening and he a head a great time.. I assured him it was similar from both ends....i too had a great time after a LONG TIME!...then with a promise to call each other upon reaching home we hung up...

And so ended my most beautiful special first date that i won't forget very soon am sure......thnks to HIM, i really had fun dat day....THANK UUUUU VWERY MUCH!!



P.S. due to the inconvenience of time and space it wud cause i wud be writing in installments regarding the remaining dates.. so keep checking coz u never know wen d next date mght ocme out! anywayz dis is personal stuff and u shudnlt be going thru it so excitedlyy.. GOT IT!!

GROANNAAA!!!!!

3rd october 2008

I just grimaced in pain as d opening credits rolled on revealing a very FANTASY prone Dronaa oops Abhishek Bachchan dancing on the streets of London[ was it really London or someother part of UK.....or it was the FILMISTAN's desi version of wht London shud luk like] whtever maybe d case...Anywayz people have given me warning in advance only about this one helluva of a movie, but me being my normal self had to go against wht everyone says..one of my most cherished characteristics.. So i went ahead and even found a guinea pig in my cousin who after coxing gave in to me and willingly sacrificed her precious hours [which were devoted to watching soap operas] for mee and my whims..atta girls,, hatss to u !! [as Rakhi Sawant says famously]

The extent of conviction in the abilities of this young duo read Goldie-Abhishek was soo much dat i even went in for advance bookings!! Unfortunately, not many people thought like mee and dere was hardly anyone there to buy the tickets...Stil i assured myself relax!! people will come to watch d movie... after all it s a huge production with so much hyped attached to it! Not everyone is as punctual as mee..

After an hour or so wen i strolled into the theatre with my cousin i was shocked by the enormity of the movvie hall i mean i have seen a movie hall before but never ever this EMPTY!! Dere were rows and rows for anyone to make out on without even catching eye of the attendant even once! A couple's heaven i guess but a movie lover's plight!.. i was disappointed by the sad response of the people of our country.. can't they think for themselves for once and stop going by the movie reviews!!

So the movie started and seeing a childhood Abhishek Bachchan harassed by his aunt [Navnnet Nshaan ] and cousin Roger[ an indian tv actor, who is btw under controversy for his looks similar to a very famous KHAN , am not referring to Salman dudies!] it reminded me a bit of Harry Potter i dn't knw why maybe the magic part of the movie, or the revelation of Dronna 's bodyguards in disguise.. jus saw d connection anywayzz...maybe u guys wont find it. Coz then u wud have to seee d movie lolz. To cut the story short[ and thank God for dat!] Abhishek belongs to a family of kings who have been serving as d gurdian to earth's most darkly kept secret...... and it is time now for the Bachchan junior to don the dress of his mentors and protect the secret yet again defeating the dark forces with the help of his dedicated team of bodygaurads led by Priyanka..[who is sufferinf frm the DDLJ syndrome of Baoji calling... breaking into Baoji kehte hain...reminds u of televisions's ugly duckiling Jassi's Beeji] see the extent of my tv viewing ...[:D]

Coming back to the movie well it would be much better if not to speak about the acting prowess of our much start studded cast....Jaya Bachchan was a pure waste of talent in a not-so-special-apperance as a meek sacrificng yet Rajputana mother....Priyanka Chopra, d surprise package was actually very convincing as AB baby's bodyguard ..better watch out for some seething angst ur way lady frm d junior Mrs.Bachchan! [:d] K K Menon as the meany jaadugar Riz Rayzada was soo irritating i mean why do dese ultra cool baddies have to act like patients of the chidlrem spastic ward!! Is it necesaary of their clan to pose that way!! God help us!!!


Sadly,all dat money going to waste made me cry in anger and frustration that poeple spend their hard earned money and in my case it is truee, to get entertained for three hours basically to get away from the tensions of daily life.. and what a disaapoitnment one gets after watching dis sad excuse for a movie.. I mean y d hell did he bothered to make ds movie with the real poeple... probbaly ananimated version would have been much better then we wouldn' t have to drone over the actors bad attempt at grandd acting!! At the end of d day...........saying dis movie sucks... would be understatement!! and i mean it.. plzz give me something more to tke my mind of my tensionsss.... Movies are my therapyyy dn't make it the cause of my needing a THERAPY!!

SADNESS MIXED IN THIS PERIOD OF FESTIVITIES: SPIRIT OF HOPE NEVER DIES

the recent bomb blasts that has rocked the country coupled with some of the biggest natural calamities of the decade has really left a sour taste in the mouths of many who have been trying to savor the sweetness of festivities starting soon.... only this morning on the first day of Navratri i saw the stampede created inside a Mandir in Jodhpur that brought abt the death of many innocent devotees...... yesterday there were 2 more bomb blasts in the south westren regions...and there have many before which i am sure not many will forget soon. Coz we all lost some one to it......if not physically than emotionally.. There have been in fact many who have been livnig under the constant fear of being thwarted by the anti social forces.....

High time we realized the enormity of the situation.. after all there are innocent lives at stakew.. i knw u must have read abt all these thoughts a million times in the papers, internet and many more places....... but it doesnlt chnge a thng howsoever times you have come acrosss it.. The saddest part is the prOblem is still pertaining and aggrevating day by day and with more festivals round the corner there is a hidden chill underneath all those smiling faces.. who think twice now before leaving their houses.. but life goes on as someone said.. i don't disagree with this fact but does it always have to be this way?? Can't taking a precaution at d earliets stage possible is better than learning a lesson over the rising death toll?? Isn't it better to nip d problem in the bud!!

i knw all this can be said and not DONE......bt atleast we can give dis a thought......lend a hand to those who have been brought under this unfortunate turn of events.. who knws agli kis ki baariii?? then these peoplel only will come to help you out. Think from this side and may be you will truly undertsand the meaning of mankind.....Y not beat the terrosim with a true festive spirit and instead of wasting galores of money on decorations and celebrations, bring home a light in the darkened lives of the suffering souls? Trust me on ths one.. once you see a smile playing on their lips it will bring a truly contented dfeeling in your heart.. Perosnal experiencee....

do celebrate EID and DIWALI with the same heart.. dat's d only plea i wnt to make right now.......

THANK YOUs....

before anyone associate d name of my blog to nay of my past galores or my not-so-hidden-nature.......tis is all thnks to one of my school friends who came up with dis name.....all thnks to himm.. else i dnt think i wu d have even started dis thng for n aother couple of mnths......thnks mohtashimmm....keep it up buddy!

SILENCE....CAN BE VERY NOISY SOMETIMES

shhhh.....d quiet all around u. clutching at your throats, pressing down at u from everywhere, every corner.. dat u feel u r ready to jus choke....bt funnily cant even express it out in open coz of the heady glares u wud be recieiving frm ur 'near and dear ones'! its almost like being alone in the crowd.. which i knw sounds too filmy.. but heyy films too derive inspiration from real life. so its nthng out of d ordinary for someone to feel like dis...

After a while one does gets used to this SILENCE....wherever u go, whatever u r doing.. even in a nosiy coffee parlour or in a crowded office.. u hear d floating slience in d air and u say bravely dis is how it is going to be frm now on.. and accept it.... bt am nt one of dose persons who accept these facts without a fight! i mean sure i knw am figting a losing battle but hey it does gives me at least some ray of hope which is jus hopeless btw....bt for mee it is real and gives me d urge to move on relentleesly untill one dayy i finally give in to d presuure and havng been drained out of every last ounce of feelngs or any emotion.....i don't feel a thing! dat's it i don't feel a thing

And dat;s wen i knw it is over......bt all all dis is too far in the distance dat i can't even make out that small speck of a thing! a long journey i knw or rather a SLIENT journey filled wit lots of pathos and emotional misgivings and momentsa of weaknesses.......wt can i do but follow d path that i myslef helped to built for mee under d illusion that it was leading towards my happiness untill it was too late for me too found out the truth.....

let's see how more of this SILENCE i can take before this NOISE gets on to my nerves and crushes me under it!!

wish to catch my DREAMZ: D BEGINNING......... IT'S LIBERATION TIME!!

wish to catch my DREAMZ: D BEGINNING......... IT'S LIBERATION TIME!!

D BEGINNING......... IT'S LIBERATION TIME!!

and so after much adieu and thought i have also arrived upon d scene of blogging.. man! how many months it took me just to think of a name and overocme my laziness to get started! i mean it is nt dat dfiicult for me to think of a name for my blog being a creative writer and all .. bt maybe dis adds much to the presuure wen u r expected to come up with sumthgn great frm dose who don;t understnads the nuiasance of writing and reading and for whom this medium is still a thing to wonder about in their minds...... bt it basically comes down to one and only thing..... that dis is for u and wht u want to doe i mean one can use this tool for creating awreness, discusiing issues.. and all.. bt for mee writing wht i want to write and whichever way i wnt to.. is far more liberating than asking others to tkae out a candle march procession! i mean am freeeee finallyyyy........ to write wht i wnt too guys! so i dn;t care a dime if one thinks that one idea doesn;t match to the other one in the same para or the same sentec ne or if the title doesnlt go by the informastion or content wrtten underneath.. dis is jus wht i am a confused baggage of too many htoughts which haven;t been given their due in the real world have to take the support of the pwer of net...

P.S. basically nt able to commuicate all dis with anybody else in such a way.. so decided to tlk to myself.. or as sopmeone once said to meee 'COUNSEL MYSELF!'