STRAIGHT FROM HEART

This Blogpost is straight from my heart. it will define whatever i am feeling at this momnet irrepective of the turns and turmulations of the events of today or in thwe past. i jus witnessed the most cruhsing moment of my life today, when i read something which i wasn't supposed to. it pierced right through my heart and it felt like osmeone is really tearing my heart out fmr in there. for few moments i couldn;t even breathe. it was dthe worst attack of hyperventuilation till yet to me. i mean, i literally thought i wouldn;t breathe again. thos os my ;last. such was the height of my panic.

maine ywe bilkul nahi expect kiya thaaa....i am really really hurt. i mean today was supposed to be the most goregous day of my life. a really special one. but it turned out to be mosat gruesome with two people getting hurt badly in the process. i really ma nt able to tolerate this pain. but there is another vein in my heart that is throbbing for him, that wants her love back just the way it was before the fight., just the way love was, how it should be.

i ma badly aching for him, but i am heart too and in between somewhere i hurted him too. it euqals the scor i guess. but i feel rotten inside yet confused. i hve never given os much into a relationship ever before like this one coz none made me feel such ever before. i mean, even if osmething bad happens on your life, you still odn;t stop living it? how can you hate your own liofe. he is my life!!

i hope if he reads it, he understands whta i am going through at thios moment,hgow much hurt i am though still a smadly in love with him a sever. what broke my heart the most was the idea of losing my somethign special moments to public. them being made eqaul wqith other people which accoridng to me hsouldn;t be the way as it was our special thing.

this is the main htought coursing throughb meee i guess and the fact of losing him and our love which is rh driicinvg force of my life. i just wish some sliutins spring spout soon and wipe this ugly episode from pour lives. ii know whle readingf it, you will be angry,bus ek baar hum dono ke beech jo kuch bhi special haii if you value it from your heart, then you will help me walk out of this phase....waiitng