Happiest moment of my life :)

Today brought in a whole tumblefull of happiness and surprises for me that almost.. NO SCRATCH THAT.. made up completely for all the depsiar, sadness, loneliness and hurtfull emotions that i went through all these past few months. I mean it was like a belated Christmas present!!

But this time I won't be giving out details of what went through the day as i want to relish it fully myself without sharing it with the rest of the world. Only exception is....well he knows who he is. Anywayz,i alwayz rely on something tangible to preserve or cherish a memory forever. Maybe that is why some people call me "MATERIALISTIC" but my main reason behind this is to imprint a certain memory by linking it to something physical that wiil alwayz remind me of that thing!



But today i don't need anything to make me remember the beautiful happenings of the day as it is imprinted in my heart forever and the best thing is the memory itself is the link that will keep the memory refreshed in my mind forever. Isn't it a great thing? I think it is.

All i can say is i dipped my feet into the alternatively new horizons of feelings and sentiments which overwhelmed me to the core and melted whatever doubts i had within me reagrding trust and companionship plus lifelong friendship. I hope i never have to come out of this pool of alluring feelings. I am ready to take the plunge into it head first! Lolz :D



Thank you for making the day really special one for me. :)

Merry Christmas Celebration-Twin Treat Or Was It Double Trouble?

Yesterday was the day which i have been waiting for a long time..For many reasons..One it was the day Ghajini was releasing!! Pretty big thing for me as i have been dying to watch that movie. Second, it was also marking the start of my holidays, few pleasurable days away from the regular mayhem of the office. And third, i was meeting Abbu after a very very long time.

Though i must tell you the last part happened pretty coincidentally. It wasn't even planned, just happened. And then there was NITS, with whom i was meeting for the second time, was pretty much relaxed after the intial awkwardness of the first meeting. Although we weren't awkward to say the least..tee hee..



Anywayz, the day proceeded just fine, just as i planned. Me and Abbu met one hour before the movie to celebrate our reunion. It was a good half an hour. We were sitting in the Mcds, eating burger and fires and gazing at each other. :) A quick trip to my "OFFICE" later it was time for us to separate for the time being as we were going with different partners for the movie.

Then it was time for Ghajini. Let me give you one piece of advice, if you really want to enjoy this ambitious project of Aamir Khan then go without an image of an utterly itense and gory movie. I mean of course the movie is intense.. But it is also COMMERCIAL! I don't want you too to end up feeling confused and baffled as to where is that crazy fanatic avengin story!!



But the movie ROCKED literally! Aamir is such a brilliant actor that you feel like applauding him just for the sheer effort that he puts into making each role just perfect to suit his personality and give his audience a real treat! A must watch i must say. One time at least!

But the real drama unfolded after the movie when me and NITS said goodbye to Abbu and his friend and headed out for lunch at Pind Baluchi. I never believed in these words but sometimes "SILENCE does speak louder than words". And that is what exactly happened. But maybe we both interpreted that silence in different sense or at least i did. That is the reason he left too early and ended whatever good time we were having or might have had.

Although everything got cleared out later on the phone.. It still stirred me up a lot to make me think and ponder over certain facts. But that is the matter which is not bothering me now, so i won't discuss it either. Right now i am enjyoing my extended weekend through whetver i can and looking forward to tommorow's outing.

Oops! now i am late for an article which i promised i will deliever before Sunday..have to pull up the strings now. So gotta go..

P.S. As to the question in the title if it was Twin Treat or Double Trouble..that is the question which is left unanswered lolz :D

Breaking Down: In Search Of My Quantum Of Solace

I am not going to entertain you guys with a review about the last bond movie.In fact, i am not even writing this one for anybody. Well the purpose of my whole blog was in fact was to take those very things out of my system which are churning inside and giving me pain in certain parts of my body, for instance my heart[ cannot mention about the brain as it is absent in my case] Lolz.:D

Everyone is in need of their "SPACE" , privacy which one guards with utmost authority. Even the most extroverts seek this isolation of sorts, a guarding door to their private territory behind which they don't want to allow anyone. Well, for me finding such space and time for myself is a tad difficult. Anyone living with a joint family can empathize with me over this fact. So, the only time i get to sort out and actually confront what i am really feeling inside is the time when i am coming back from office to home. That half an hour becomes my shrine, where only my methodology and ability to conjure things and reminiscing works.

Clearly, according to some people this is not a good way at all to deal with your trouble."You should try to avoid those things", says one of my friends. But isn't it like repressing your emotions? Instead i am giving them a way out of my system! At least for the time being, until they find another way to creep back in!

I cherish my quantum of solace at that time more than anything. Coz this is the only time when i am being my true self, far away from the bubbly-dumb-cute-looking-fat ass-good for nothing person which i am for the rest of my kin[ parts baout physical description are really true although!]:D. Sometimes my real self do comes out in front of others and dat's the time i get into all kinds of arguments, fights and awkward situations. But slowly i am mastering the art of slipping back into the mask and hiding behind this safe facade where no one can question me. But i shudn't bother that much about it coz hardly anyone cares about it..now!



It's just "Main aur meri tanhai...jo aksar baatein karte hain....". In other words my dear "QUANTUM OF SOLACE"

Thode Badmaash....

Miss You My Batmeez when

someone makes a :P emoticon on Yahoo :)

someone laughs and cries at the same time while drunk

someone coos sweet nothings with intensity and compassion

someone lulls me to sleep by singing 'ur my hunny bunns sugar plums..'

TZP, Darsheel and Maa comes on screen

Saawariya is playing [ background theme, the climax separation scene]

Thode Badmaash can be heard in the background

someone asks for a promise which ends anything even before the beginning

someone utters the names.. Arjun and Tamanna....sigh!

someone makes me feel i look 'beautiful'

someone says 1..2....3 ******

someone says dat special name



I haven't found anyone yet with all of the above misgivIngs....I don't really miss u that means. Coz there is no one like you. But that is also trUe that i haven't ever forgtten you...atleast the person you were with me during that time..Coz i hate the otherwise emotionless, indifferent solid wall of rock of today....

P.S. High time i should cut the crap and get my bearings right..as someone once told me..'It is the nighttime which makes you think about all those things which seems unimportant to you in the day. It is the time for over the top sentiments and emotions.' Trying to quit with.. unsuccessfull attempts ofcourse.:)